The 8th Day

Yesterday at church my pastor, Jason English, who is an amazing speaker talked on circumcision. It was quite funny watching him speak on it and getting flustered until he hit his point. As Christian's, once we ask Jesus to take over our lives and help us live a better life, we are to circumcise our heart's. Jason said that all the grudges, sorrow, suffering and pain that has been a burden for however long on our lives we are suppose to cut it off of our hearts and remember that God has control and that he wants to take it all from us. Even as a christian for 11 years now I've had my fair share of doubt and down moments. Jason also mentioned that although we may "trust" God with all our problems we still hold on to a little bit of our hurt and say "I will give it all to you God, just let me give it to you slowly" and that's not what we are suppose to do. So today and every day after I'm going to try and let go of this depression, hurt and pain that drags me down. Because God loves me and although that's sometimes hard to believe, he does and I am going to choose to believe it every step of the way.

My secret passion...ssshh!

I watch music videos and listen to music more than I talk in a day...people may just think it's because I love music more than most anything in this world but it's honestly because I have ALWAYS wanted to be a singer. Those videos I watch? I imagine myself making one someday. I don't want to do it for the fame but rather the feeling I get when I sing. Happiness. That overwhelming feelings that overtakes my body and makes me want to just start jumping around and singing at the top of my lungs. Cause to me it's not about anything other than sharing my emotions with other people through singing. Too bad I have stage fright and singing in front of even one person scares me...maybe someday it'll happen even if for a moment.

Explain Yourself

The reason for my blogs are to help me get my feelings out and spoken. I'm not an eloquent speaker but I am some how able to write in more detail than I could ever explain with my lips. The reason for my "Wonderer" title is real simple. I can't stay in one place too long, I wonder, I can't keep my brain from over thinking or going beyond what's in front of me, I wonder. My brain is the strongest part of my body and with that I will explain things that most people won't ever understand about me. I don't write often and mostly only write when my heart has to spill it's contents out, meaning that I can't keep all my emotions in 24/7. But this is it for now because it's 1am and I have work tomorrow.